I’m sure many of us have heard this old tale: The Native Americans believe there are two wolves living within each of us.
One wolf feeds on evil things: pride, selfishness, gossip, anger, judgment, and lust. We’d call these things, “sin.”
The other wolf feeds on good things: patience, humility, forgiveness, kindness, and love.
The question is, “Which wolf wins?”
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The one we feed.
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The heated climate in America today has made it too easy to feed that negative wolf within; to be judgmental; to feel frustrated; to loathe those who disagree with us.
That evil wolf wants to consume our unity and inner peace. Too often, it seems, it does.
Which is why the Lord invites us to choose a different path today; to feed that good wolf instead.
The more we do, the happier we – and everyone else around us – will be.
Some of the most common fears include the fear of heights; the fear of flying; and the fear of public speaking.
Today we could add the fear of COVID; the fear of returning to school or work; and, of course, the fear of death.
All of these fears have one thing in common: they push us beyond our comfort zones.
Human beings like being in control. We enjoy doing what’s familiar, yet we know we’re capable of more.
Sometimes we just need an extra push.
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Consider what happens to Saint Peter in today’s Gospel.
Jesus invites him to walk on water.
Like us, Peter’s spent his whole life walking on land. Perhaps he never dreamt of doing anything more. The land is solid; sturdy; a place of comfort and familiarity.
But here Jesus is, stretching out his hand to Peter, saying: “Come.”
Walk on water.
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How often does Jesus invite us to do the same?
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Consider an addict stepping out of the boat, walking towards sobriety for the very first time.
Or the thousands of teachers who’ve stepped out of their classrooms, moving their careers online.
Or first-time parents stepping out of the hospital and into their cars, driving their newborn child home.
Or maybe you’re like me, an imperfect believer, trying to step out of the boat of comfort into a deeper life of faith.
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Whatever it may be, the Lord invites us to embrace those words of Saint Paul, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
I’m sure we all remember how panicked we felt when New Jersey first shut down.
Unsure of the future, many started panic buying, stockpiling everything from frozen foods to toilet paper.
Who knew a household of four needed 50 rolls for the week?
The memes online were hilarious. Someone even posted a video of two women pretending to be on the Titanic, wearing life vests, and playing their violins to the tune of, “My heart will go on.”
An ode to shelves once stocked with Charmin.
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Whenever there is a shortage of supplies, it seems, the worst in us can surface.
Think about how people behave on Black Friday or when the newest iPhone comes out. Eager buyers will punch, kick and bite for a chance to be first.
I’m told this was also true in the gas shortage of 1974.
I can only imagine how such customers may have reacted to an empty aisle of Charmin.
Whenever there is a shortage of supplies, whether it’s bread, gas, or the newest iPhone, it seems the worst in us can surface.
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Look at what happens in today’s Gospel.
Thousands have been following Jesus. Now they’re tired, hungry, thirsty, and there’s a shortage of food.
Sensing a possible disaster, the disciples say what others might in a time of crisis, “Dismiss the crowds!”
Let them fend for themselves.
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No, Jesus says. “Give them some food yourselves.”
A reminder to the disciples that they are their brother’s keeper. Somehow their five loaves and two fish will become enough for everyone.
But first the Lord must teach them a lesson in teamwork.
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The Gospel doesn’t tell us exactly how the crowds were fed; only that Jesus took the five loaves and two fish, blessed them, and gave them back to his disciples with the command, “Feed them yourselves.”
While Jesus could have easily multiplied the loaves himself, he chose to rely upon his disciples, instead. So how did everyone manage to be fed?
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Perhaps the multiplication of the loaves was more than a physical miracle, it was also a moral miracle.
Meaning, Jesus was less interested in multiplying the bread himself, and more interested in transforming human hearts.
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Jesus knew people were hungry. But he also knew how selfish his disciples – and likely others – were being.
Some within the crowds likely had food hidden in their own pockets.
Just as we would pack a lunch if we were going for a long day’s hike, so those who could afford their daily bread would’ve brought some along with them.
If Jesus could convince them to share what they have with others, then everyone will be fed. There’d be more than enough – and thus, no need for him to multiply any more.
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The feeding starts with the disciples.
Perhaps begrudgingly at first, they take their five loaves and two fish, break them apart, and share what they have with others.
Moved with compassion, others start doing the same.
It becomes a domino effect. All are fed before sunset.
This would be the greatest miracle of all, transforming human hearts from selfishness to charity.
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Imagine something like that happening in America today.
A moral miracle rippling like a wave throughout society; greed turned into charity, selfishness into selflessness; division into unity.
We need Jesus’ help just as much as the disciples did.
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In fact, the multiplication of the loaves made such an impact upon the disciples that it’s recorded six times in the Gospels.
In fact, it’s recorded more than any other miracle, making it the most frequently told story in the Gospels.
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This should also be the most frequently told story in our age.
Instead of hoarding or panic buying, when there’s a crisis – like a global pandemic – Christians grow in charity. We multiply God’s blessings, freely sharing what we have with others.
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Understandably, our impulse is to panic; to take; to grab whatever we can, whether it’s Charmin, bread, or the latest iPhone.
But we know we can do better.
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When do I feel that selfish impulse?
And how is the Lord inviting me to change? How is he drawing me into this need for a moral miracle of generosity in America?
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Maybe that means learning to be content with what I have, or learning to live with less. Maybe that means offering more of my time; volunteering; or donating to causes in need.
There’s no question we’ve all felt an economic pinch, but do we consider those who are in even greater need than we are?
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“Feed them yourselves,” Jesus says. We are our brother’s keeper.
Take a look in our grocery carts; a look into our pockets; a look into our hearts.
What do we have that we might share generously with others so that everyone is stocked and fed?
