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Gospel: John 13: 21-38
Reclining at table with his disciples, Jesus was deeply troubled and testified,
“Amen, amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.”
The disciples looked at one another, at a loss as to whom he meant.
One of his disciples, the one whom Jesus loved,
was reclining at Jesus’ side.
So Simon Peter nodded to him to find out whom he meant.
He leaned back against Jesus’ chest and said to him,
“Master, who is it?”
Jesus answered,
“It is the one to whom I hand the morsel after I have dipped it.”
So he dipped the morsel and took it and handed it to Judas,
son of Simon the Iscariot.
After Judas took the morsel, Satan entered him.
So Jesus said to him, “What you are going to do, do quickly.”
Now none of those reclining at table realized why he said this to him.
Some thought that since Judas kept the money bag, Jesus had told him,
“Buy what we need for the feast,”
or to give something to the poor.
So Judas took the morsel and left at once. And it was night.
When he had left, Jesus said,
“Now is the Son of Man glorified, and God is glorified in him.
If God is glorified in him, God will also glorify him in himself,
and he will glorify him at once.
My children, I will be with you only a little while longer.
You will look for me, and as I told the Jews,
‘Where I go you cannot come,’ so now I say it to you.”
Simon Peter said to him, “Master, where are you going?”
Jesus answered him,
“Where I am going, you cannot follow me now,
though you will follow later.”
Peter said to him,
“Master, why can I not follow you now?
I will lay down my life for you.”
Jesus answered, “Will you lay down your life for me?
Amen, amen, I say to you, the cock will not crow
before you deny me three times.”
The Gospel of the Lord.
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During Jesus’ final night on earth, he gathers his friends together for a meal, known as the Last Supper.
I often pray before an icon of that moment, reminding myself that I am – and maybe we all are – capable of being like any one of the disciples gathered around Jesus that night.
It’s a dynamic group.
There is John, the ever-faithful disciple who leans tenderly on the heart of Christ. Perhaps that describes some of us, or at least periods in our life – consistently devout; our hearts are dedicated entirely to God.
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Then there’s Peter. Peter sways in his devotion like a branch in the wind. One moment he’s ready to die for the Lord, but the next he denies ever knowing him.
Peter wants to be faithful. But sometimes fear and temptation get the best of him.
Maybe, at times, we’re Peter. We want to be faithful to the Lord. But fear or temptation can get in the way.
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Then there’s Judas, who betrays Jesus, handing him over for 30 lousy pieces of silver.
We can only speculate as to why Judas did this. Was he disappointed in Jesus? Greedy? Or angry that his own dreams of glory were smashed?
We don’t know. But we do know that such feelings – greed, anger, and disappointment – can surface in any human heart, certainly when things don’t go our way, or when we pray for something and the answer is, “No.”
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There they are: three men sitting at the same table with Jesus.
One was faithful. Another stumbled. The third gave up.
Yet, the Lord “loved them to the end,” and died for them all, just as he died for us.
How might we show our gratitude for Jesus, or demonstrate our faith in him, today?
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Image credits: (1) Mystical Supper, Ancient Faith Store (2) The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, Last Supper (3) The Sacrament of the Last Supper, Salvador Dali





