Living in Tension: The tug-of-war between doubt and faith.

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Gospel: Mark 5: 21-43

“When Jesus had crossed again in the boat
to the other side,
a large crowd gathered around him, and he stayed close to the sea.
One of the synagogue officials, named Jairus, came forward.
Seeing him he fell at his feet and pleaded earnestly with him, saying,
“My daughter is at the point of death.
Please, come lay your hands on her
that she may get well and live.”
He went off with him,
and a large crowd followed him and pressed upon him.

There was a woman afflicted with hemorrhages for twelve years.
She had suffered greatly at the hands of many doctors
and had spent all that she had.
Yet she was not helped but only grew worse.
She had heard about Jesus and came up behind him in the crowd
and touched his cloak.
She said, “If I but touch his clothes, I shall be cured.”
Immediately her flow of blood dried up.
She felt in her body that she was healed of her affliction.
Jesus, aware at once that power had gone out from him,
turned around in the crowd and asked, “Who has touched my clothes?”
But his disciples said to Jesus,
“You see how the crowd is pressing upon you,
and yet you ask, ‘Who touched me?’”
And he looked around to see who had done it.
The woman, realizing what had happened to her,
approached in fear and trembling.
She fell down before Jesus and told him the whole truth.
He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has saved you.
Go in peace and be cured of your affliction.”

While he was still speaking,
people from the synagogue official’s house arrived and said,
“Your daughter has died; why trouble the teacher any longer?” 
Disregarding the message that was reported,
Jesus said to the synagogue official,
“Do not be afraid; just have faith.”
He did not allow anyone to accompany him inside
except Peter, James, and John, the brother of James.
When they arrived at the house of the synagogue official,
he caught sight of a commotion,
people weeping and wailing loudly.
So he went in and said to them,
“Why this commotion and weeping?
The child is not dead but asleep.”
And they ridiculed him.
Then he put them all out.
He took along the child’s father and mother
and those who were with him
and entered the room where the child was.
He took the child by the hand and said to her, “Talitha koum,”
which means, “Little girl, I say to you, arise!”
The girl, a child of twelve, arose immediately and walked around.
At that they were utterly astounded.
He gave strict orders that no one should know this
and said that she should be given something to eat.”

The Gospel of the Lord.

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The raising of Jairus daughter. “Lord, I am not worthy that you should  enter under my roof, but only say the word … | Jairus daughter, Bible  pictures, Christian art

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At some point in life, almost everyone wonders, “Why do people suffer?” 

If God loves us, then why do we suffer?

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Both stories in the Gospel today deal with faith in the midst of suffering.

There are two women who, together, represent all of humanity. There’s Jairus’ daughter, who’s only 12 years old, and a woman who’s been hemorrhaging for the last twelve years. 

The young girl represents every child who’s suffered, along with the pain of their parents. The older woman represents all who are aging, whose bodies and minds are weakening, slowly breaking down.

Two stories of suffering with varying degrees of faith.

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Jairus is a synagogue official, a man of wealth and status who can do anything but restore his daughter’s health.

Whatever attempts that have been made to save her life have proven futile, so he desperately falls at the feet of Jesus. 

“My daughter is at the point of death,” he says. “Please, come lay your hands on her that she may get well and live.”

Jesus heads to Jairus’ home, while a large crowd presses in on him, curious to catch a miracle. 

Jairus must’ve been filled with hope. His frantic plea has been heard. Jesus is on his way. 

Suddenly the momentum disappears. Standing in the midst of the crowd, Jesus stops and says, “Who has touched my clothes?” 

It seems like a ridiculous question. Why should Jesus worry about such a trivial matter? A young girl is on her deathbed! Time is of the essence.

But Jesus will not take another step until he finds an answer.

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There are probably many reasons why Jesus stopped that day. One reason must’ve been this: to test the faith of Jairus and the crowds. 

When reports surface of this little girl’s death, the skepticism of the crowd is revealed: “Your daughter has died,” they say to Jairus. “Why trouble the teacher any longer?”

“Do not be afraid,” Jesus says, “just have faith.”

Jesus wants everyone to mimic the faith of the woman who was hemorrhaging, who touched the tassel of his cloak and, miraculously, was healed.

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If only it were so easy.

How many of us have felt like Jairus or the crowds? We hoped in the Lord, but had our faith pushed to the limits?

Maybe we’ve struggled to get it back.

What Jesus said of Jairus’ daughter might be said of us. “Why this commotion and weeping? Your faith is not dead but asleep.”

Sometimes the Lord tests our faith – as he tested theirs – only to re-awaken it.

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The Raising of the Daughter of Jairus Giclée Print - Jeremy Winborg Art

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Contrast our natural ability to doubt with this older woman, who breaks through barriers to merely touch Jesus. 

Risking public embarrassment and making Jesus ritually impure, she barrels through the crowds, seeking only to touch the tassel of his cloak.

I’m sure many of us can recall such a moment in our lives, when we were desperate for God, frantically grasping for the tassel of his cloak.

Perhaps we received a malignant diagnosis, endured a period of heartbreak, or waited patiently for a door to open. 

We needed to be healed, saved from our fears, saved from our uncertainty. 

Maybe the Lord opened the door we wanted or gave us the healing we so desperately sought. 

Or maybe he gave us the peace to accept a future different from what we had hoped.

Either way, like the woman in the Gospel today, we reached out for Jesus and power came out of him. 

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Pin by monteil on Jesus - Classic | Jesus painting, Pictures of jesus  christ, Pictures of christ

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Mark sandwiches these stories to create an image for our own lives. Faith and doubt live in tension within us.

There are times when we doubt – even to the brink of despair like Jairus and the incredulous crowds – and there are times when our faith wins the day, like the woman who touches the tassel of Jesus’ cloak.

When we feel like Jairus, we must remember that, at times, the Lord tests our faith only to strengthen it.

As it’s written in the Letter of Saint James, “Consider it all joy, my brothers and sisters, when you encounter various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” (James 1:2-3).

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Wherever we may be on our journeys, whether our hearts are filled with doubt, faith, or a combination of both, may we all persevere.

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Hemorrhaging Hope, Grasping the Garment - Mount Saint Mary's Abbey -  Wrentham, MA

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Image credits: (1) International Business Times (2) The Raising of Jairus’ Daughter, Pinterest (3) Jeremy Winborg Art (4) Pin by monteil on Jesus, Pinterest (5) Mount Saint Mary’s Abbey, Wrentham, Massachusetts