“Lord, if you had been here.” Standing at the graveside, weeping.

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Gospel: Jn. 11. 1-45

The sisters of Lazarus sent word to Jesus, saying,
“Master, the one you love is ill.”
When Jesus heard this he said,
“This illness is not to end in death,
but is for the glory of God,
that the Son of God may be glorified through it.”
Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus.
So when he heard that he was ill,
he remained for two days in the place where he was.
Then after this he said to his disciples,
“Let us go back to Judea.”

When Jesus arrived, he found that Lazarus 
had already been in the tomb for four days.
When Martha heard that Jesus was coming,
she went to meet him; 
but Mary sat at home.
Martha said to Jesus, 
“Lord, if you had been here,
my brother would not have died.
But even now I know that whatever you ask of God,
God will give you.”
Jesus said to her,
“Your brother will rise.”
Martha said,
“I know he will rise,
in the resurrection on the last day.”
Jesus told her,
“I am the resurrection and the life; 
whoever believes in me, even if he dies, will live, 
and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die.
Do you believe this?”
She said to him, “Yes, Lord.
I have come to believe that you are the Christ, the Son of God,
the one who is coming into the world.”

He became perturbed and deeply troubled, and said, 
“Where have you laid him?”
They said to him, “Sir, come and see.”
And Jesus wept.
So the Jews said, “See how he loved him.”
But some of them said, 
“Could not the one who opened the eyes of the blind man 
have done something so that this man would not have died?”

So Jesus, perturbed again, came to the tomb.
It was a cave, and a stone lay across it.
Jesus said, “Take away the stone.”
Martha, the dead man’s sister, said to him, 
“Lord, by now there will be a stench; 
he has been dead for four days.”
Jesus said to her,
“Did I not tell you that if you believe 
you will see the glory of God?”
So they took away the stone.
And Jesus raised his eyes and said, 
“Father, I thank you for hearing me.
I know that you always hear me; 
but because of the crowd here I have said this, 
that they may believe that you sent me.”
And when he had said this,
He cried out in a loud voice, 
“Lazarus, come out!”
The dead man came out,
tied hand and foot with burial bands, 
and his face was wrapped in a cloth.
So Jesus said to them,
“Untie him and let him go.”

Now many of the Jews who had come to Mary
and seen what he had done began to believe in him.

The Gospel of the Lord.

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There was once an elderly couple married for seventy years. One day, the wife died and went to heaven. 

Some years later, the husband died and was greeted by his wife at the pearly gates. She led him in and showed him all around – the flowing fountains, the golf course, the sun that never set.

In the middle of the tour, she stopped, overhearing her husband grumbling. “What are you complaining about?” she said.

“If it had not been for that darn oatmeal,” he said, “I could’ve been here years ago!”

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Heaven. 

We all want to reach those pearly gates… Just not yet.

Mary and Martha know the feeling. 

In today’s Gospel, their brother Lazarus is deathly ill. So, they do the only thing they can to save him – they call upon Jesus, the miracle worker, who “loves” them dearly. 

Then they sit and wait. 

Although we know how this Gospel passage ends – Lazarus is brought back to life – consider the gut-wrenching roller coaster this family endured before Jesus decided to act.

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First, there was the sense of helplessness that Mary and Martha felt watching Lazarus suffer. After calling upon the Lord, they waited patiently, but to no avail. 

Lazarus dies before Jesus arrives.

Even after Lazarus dies, Mary and Martha wait another four days before Jesus shows up. What makes this so hard is the fact that Jesus knew Lazarus was sick, but did nothing about it. So, when she sees him, Martha runs up to Jesus, falls at his feet, and says tearfully:

“Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.”

What a heart-crushing testament of faith. “Lord, if you had been here.”

The faith of these sisters is amplified a few verses later when Mary runs out and says the same thing: “Lord, if you had been here.” 

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When Jesus sees their sobbing, he becomes “perturbed and deeply troubled.”

This word, “perturbed,” literally means to be, “angry within yourself.” 

What was Jesus “angry” about?

While the Gospel does not tell us, we can imagine what might’ve weighed on his heart.

Perhaps Jesus was “angry” at death for stealing his friend, Lazarus. Maybe he was struck with emotion deep within himself, knowing that he will die next. 

Or maybe he was “angry” about the lack of faith present among the mourners.

While Mary and Martha expressed their faith in the Lord’s power to heal physically, their words also reveal the limit of their faith. “Lord, if you had been here,” implies that Jesus can do nothing now; Lazarus is dead.

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In a dramatic escalation, Jesus commands the bystanders to take away the stone. Martha’s doubt intensifies as she warns Jesus, “Lord, by now there will be a stench; he has been dead for four days.”

Undeterred, Jesus exclaims, “Lazarus, come out!”

Suddenly, he wiggles his way to the tomb’s entrance, still covered in dusty burial cloths.

Finally, the Gospel states, “Many began to believe in him.”

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It’s hard to imagine the emotional roller coaster these siblings – Mary, Martha, and Lazarus – just endured. First, Lazarus is sick. Then they wait. Then Lazarus dies. Four days later, Jesus shows up.

While he could’ve healed Lazarus while he was ill, Jesus waited and let his friend die because he knew that this experience of having Lazarus brought back to life would increase their faith, which will be of paramount importance as they approach the Cross on Good Friday.

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So many of us have felt like Mary and Martha. We’ve stood at the graveside weeping, saying, “Lord, if you had been here.”

But the Lord reminds us today, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me – even if he dies – will live forever.”

As we approach Good Friday, may we remember what happens to Lazarus today and prepare our hearts for what will come – the empty tomb on Easter Sunday.

And eventually our own.

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Image credits: (1) Pastor Mike, Road to Life church (2) Quora (3) The Gospel Coalition

“For this ‘hour’ I have come.” – Jesus

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Gospel: John 7: 1-2, 10, 25-30

Jesus moved about within Galilee;
he did not wish to travel in Judea,
because the Jews were trying to kill him.
But the Jewish feast of Tabernacles was near.

But when his brothers had gone up to the feast,
he himself also went up, not openly but as it were in secret.

Some of the inhabitants of Jerusalem said,
“Is he not the one they are trying to kill?
And look, he is speaking openly and they say nothing to him.
Could the authorities have realized that he is the Christ?
But we know where he is from.
When the Christ comes, no one will know where he is from.”
So Jesus cried out in the temple area as he was teaching and said,
“You know me and also know where I am from.
Yet I did not come on my own,
but the one who sent me, whom you do not know, is true.
I know him, because I am from him, and he sent me.”
So they tried to arrest him,
but no one laid a hand upon him,
because his hour had not yet come.

The Gospel of the Lord.

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Matthew 21:23-27 Jesus Authority is Questioned — Tell the Lord Thank You

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“No one laid a hand on him because his hour had not come” (John 7:30).

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Throughout John’s Gospel, Jesus makes constant reference to his “hour.” 

We first hear him speak about it at the wedding at Cana, when Jesus turns 150 gallons of water into wine at the prompting of Mary.

We hear further reference of his “hour” in today’s Gospel. The religious authorities are collapsing in on him, plotting to kill Jesus, but they cannot do so yet because his “hour” has not come.

Everything that Jesus does throughout his ministry, every sermon he preaches, every miracle he performs is somehow inspired by this “hour.”

So, what is this “hour” he is so concerned about?

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The “hour” of his crucifixion, death, and resurrection. As he says on the night he’s arrested in the Garden of Gethsemane, “for this hour have I come” (John 12:27).

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In two weeks from today, you and I will journey with Jesus into the Garden of Gethsemane, through his arrest, trial, and crucifixion, and to the empty tomb on Easter Sunday. 

He prepared his whole life for this event, just as you and I should be preparing ourselves spiritually this Lent.  

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So, how’s it going? Have we had a fruitful Lent thus far? Have we suffered with Jesus? Have we served him in our neighbor? Have we prepared our hearts for the scandal of the Cross?

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There’s only two weeks left until Good Friday. Jesus will embrace his “hour” with incredible courage, knowing that his death leads to his resurrection.

Make every effort to remain by his side. For his resurrection promises your own.

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Only One Empty Tomb

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Image credits: (1) Things New and Old (2) Tell the Lord thank you (3) The Gospel Coalition

Live like a tea candle: Bright. Warm. Fading.

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Gospel: John 5: 31-47

Jesus said to the Jews:
“If I testify on my own behalf, my testimony is not true.
But there is another who testifies on my behalf,
and I know that the testimony he gives on my behalf is true.
You sent emissaries to John, and he testified to the truth.
I do not accept human testimony,
but I say this so that you may be saved.
He was a burning and shining lamp,
and for a while you were content to rejoice in his light.
But I have testimony greater than John’s.
The works that the Father gave me to accomplish,
these works that I perform testify on my behalf
that the Father has sent me.
Moreover, the Father who sent me has testified on my behalf.
But you have never heard his voice nor seen his form,
and you do not have his word remaining in you,
because you do not believe in the one whom he has sent.
You search the Scriptures,
because you think you have eternal life through them;
even they testify on my behalf.
But you do not want to come to me to have life.

“I do not accept human praise;
moreover, I know that you do not have the love of God in you.
I came in the name of my Father,
but you do not accept me;
yet if another comes in his own name,
you will accept him.
How can you believe, when you accept praise from one another
and do not seek the praise that comes from the only God?
Do not think that I will accuse you before the Father:
the one who will accuse you is Moses,
in whom you have placed your hope.
For if you had believed Moses,
you would have believed me,
because he wrote about me.
But if you do not believe his writings,
how will you believe my words?”

The Gospel of the Lord.

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Every morning before I begin praying at my desk, I light a tea candle and place it in a stand. 

The candle burns bright for over an hour before its tiny little wick runs out, disappearing into a small silhouette of smoke.

It’s such a simple object, but that little candle reminds me of John the Baptist, whom Jesus praises in today’s Gospel.

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Like a candle, John did three things:

He gave off light – the light of faith.

He burned like fire – with passion for Christ.

And like a burning wick, his ego slowly faded until there was nothing left – only Christ alive within him.

As John proclaims, “The LORD must increase, and I must decrease.”

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How are we like John the Baptist?

Do we share our faith with others? Do we burn with passion for Christ? Do we allow the Lord to increase within us?

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Like a little tea candle, John was bright, warm, and slowly died to himself.

May we be the same today.

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