Seeing Jesus like I never had before.

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(For today’s sermon, scroll down past the Gospel.)

Gospel: John 18: 1 – 19: 42

Jesus went out with his disciples across the Kidron valley 
to where there was a garden, 
into which he and his disciples entered.
Judas his betrayer also knew the place, 
because Jesus had often met there with his disciples.
So Judas got a band of soldiers and guards 
from the chief priests and the Pharisees 
and went there with lanterns, torches, and weapons.
Jesus, knowing everything that was going to happen to him, 
went out and said to them, “Whom are you looking for?”
They answered him, “Jesus the Nazorean.”
He said to them, “I AM.”
Judas his betrayer was also with them.
When he said to them, “I AM, “ 
they turned away and fell to the ground.
So he again asked them,
“Whom are you looking for?”
They said, “Jesus the Nazorean.”
Jesus answered,
“I told you that I AM.
So if you are looking for me, let these men go.”
This was to fulfill what he had said, 
“I have not lost any of those you gave me.”
Then Simon Peter, who had a sword, drew it, 
struck the high priest’s slave, and cut off his right ear.
The slave’s name was Malchus.
Jesus said to Peter,
“Put your sword into its scabbard.
Shall I not drink the cup that the Father gave me?”

So the band of soldiers, the tribune, and the Jewish guards seized Jesus,
bound him, and brought him to Annas first.
He was the father-in-law of Caiaphas, 
who was high priest that year.
It was Caiaphas who had counseled the Jews 
that it was better that one man should die rather than the people.

Simon Peter and another disciple followed Jesus.
Now the other disciple was known to the high priest, 
and he entered the courtyard of the high priest with Jesus.
But Peter stood at the gate outside.
So the other disciple, the acquaintance of the high priest, 
went out and spoke to the gatekeeper and brought Peter in.
Then the maid who was the gatekeeper said to Peter, 
“You are not one of this man’s disciples, are you?”
He said, “I am not.”
Now the slaves and the guards were standing around a charcoal fire
that they had made, because it was cold,
and were warming themselves.
Peter was also standing there keeping warm.

The high priest questioned Jesus 
about his disciples and about his doctrine.
Jesus answered him,
“I have spoken publicly to the world.
I have always taught in a synagogue 
or in the temple area where all the Jews gather, 
and in secret I have said nothing.  Why ask me?
Ask those who heard me what I said to them.
They know what I said.”
When he had said this, 
one of the temple guards standing there struck Jesus and said, 
“Is this the way you answer the high priest?”
Jesus answered him,
“If I have spoken wrongly, testify to the wrong; 
but if I have spoken rightly, why do you strike me?”
Then Annas sent him bound to Caiaphas the high priest.

Now Simon Peter was standing there keeping warm.
And they said to him,
“You are not one of his disciples, are you?”
He denied it and said,
“I am not.”
One of the slaves of the high priest, 
a relative of the one whose ear Peter had cut off, said, 
“Didn’t I see you in the garden with him?”
Again Peter denied it.
And immediately the cock crowed.

Then they brought Jesus from Caiaphas to the praetorium.
It was morning.
And they themselves did not enter the praetorium, 
in order not to be defiled so that they could eat the Passover.
So Pilate came out to them and said, 
“What charge do you bring against this man?”
They answered and said to him,
“If he were not a criminal, 
we would not have handed him over to you.”
At this, Pilate said to them, 
“Take him yourselves, and judge him according to your law.”
The Jews answered him, 
“We do not have the right to execute anyone,“ 
in order that the word of Jesus might be fulfilled
that he said indicating the kind of death he would die.
So Pilate went back into the praetorium 
and summoned Jesus and said to him, 
“Are you the King of the Jews?”
Jesus answered,
“Do you say this on your own 
or have others told you about me?”
Pilate answered,
“I am not a Jew, am I?
Your own nation and the chief priests handed you over to me.
What have you done?”
Jesus answered,
“My kingdom does not belong to this world.
If my kingdom did belong to this world, 
my attendants would be fighting 
to keep me from being handed over to the Jews.
But as it is, my kingdom is not here.”
So Pilate said to him,
“Then you are a king?”
Jesus answered,
“You say I am a king.
For this I was born and for this I came into the world, 
to testify to the truth.
Everyone who belongs to the truth listens to my voice.”
Pilate said to him, “What is truth?”

When he had said this,
he again went out to the Jews and said to them,
“I find no guilt in him.
But you have a custom that I release one prisoner to you at Passover.
Do you want me to release to you the King of the Jews?”
They cried out again,
“Not this one but Barabbas!”
Now Barabbas was a revolutionary.

Then Pilate took Jesus and had him scourged.
And the soldiers wove a crown out of thorns and placed it on his head, 
and clothed him in a purple cloak, 
and they came to him and said,
“Hail, King of the Jews!”
And they struck him repeatedly.
Once more Pilate went out and said to them, 
“Look, I am bringing him out to you, 
so that you may know that I find no guilt in him.”
So Jesus came out, 
wearing the crown of thorns and the purple cloak.
And he said to them, “Behold, the man!”
When the chief priests and the guards saw him they cried out, 
“Crucify him, crucify him!”

Pilate said to them,
“Take him yourselves and crucify him.
I find no guilt in him.”
The Jews answered, 
“We have a law, and according to that law he ought to die, 
because he made himself the Son of God.”
Now when Pilate heard this statement,
he became even more afraid, 
and went back into the praetorium and said to Jesus, 
“Where are you from?”
Jesus did not answer him.
So Pilate said to him,
“Do you not speak to me?
Do you not know that I have power to release you 
and I have power to crucify you?”
Jesus answered him,
“You would have no power over me 
if it had not been given to you from above.
For this reason the one who handed me over to you
has the greater sin.”
Consequently, Pilate tried to release him; but the Jews cried out, 
“If you release him, you are not a Friend of Caesar.
Everyone who makes himself a king opposes Caesar.”

When Pilate heard these words he brought Jesus out 
and seated him on the judge’s bench 
in the place called Stone Pavement, in Hebrew, Gabbatha.
It was preparation day for Passover, and it was about noon.
And he said to the Jews,
“Behold, your king!”
They cried out,
“Take him away, take him away!  Crucify him!”
Pilate said to them,
“Shall I crucify your king?”
The chief priests answered,
“We have no king but Caesar.”
Then he handed him over to them to be crucified.

So they took Jesus, and, carrying the cross himself, 
he went out to what is called the Place of the Skull, 
in Hebrew, Golgotha.
There they crucified him, and with him two others, 
one on either side, with Jesus in the middle.
Pilate also had an inscription written and put on the cross.
It read,
“Jesus the Nazorean, the King of the Jews.”
Now many of the Jews read this inscription, 
because the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city; 
and it was written in Hebrew, Latin, and Greek.
So the chief priests of the Jews said to Pilate, 
“Do not write ‘The King of the Jews,’
but that he said, ‘I am the King of the Jews’.”
Pilate answered,
“What I have written, I have written.”

When the soldiers had crucified Jesus, 
they took his clothes and divided them into four shares, 
a share for each soldier.
They also took his tunic, but the tunic was seamless, 
woven in one piece from the top down.
So they said to one another, 
“Let’s not tear it, but cast lots for it to see whose it will be, “ 
in order that the passage of Scripture might be fulfilled that says:
    They divided my garments among them,
        and for my vesture they cast lots.

This is what the soldiers did.
Standing by the cross of Jesus were his mother
and his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Clopas,
and Mary of Magdala.
When Jesus saw his mother and the disciple there whom he loved
he said to his mother, “Woman, behold, your son.”
Then he said to the disciple,
“Behold, your mother.”
And from that hour the disciple took her into his home.

After this, aware that everything was now finished, 
in order that the Scripture might be fulfilled, 
Jesus said, “I thirst.”
There was a vessel filled with common wine.
So they put a sponge soaked in wine on a sprig of hyssop 
and put it up to his mouth.
When Jesus had taken the wine, he said,
“It is finished.”
And bowing his head, he handed over the spirit.

        Here all kneel and pause for a short time.

Now since it was preparation day,
in order that the bodies might not remain on the cross on the sabbath,
for the sabbath day of that week was a solemn one, 
the Jews asked Pilate that their legs be broken 
and that they be taken down.
So the soldiers came and broke the legs of the first 
and then of the other one who was crucified with Jesus.
But when they came to Jesus and saw that he was already dead, 
they did not break his legs, 
but one soldier thrust his lance into his side, 
and immediately blood and water flowed out.
An eyewitness has testified, and his testimony is true; 
he knows that he is speaking the truth, 
so that you also may come to believe.
For this happened so that the Scripture passage might be fulfilled:
    Not a bone of it will be broken.
And again another passage says:
    They will look upon him whom they have pierced.

After this, Joseph of Arimathea, 
secretly a disciple of Jesus for fear of the Jews, 
asked Pilate if he could remove the body of Jesus.
And Pilate permitted it.
So he came and took his body.
Nicodemus, the one who had first come to him at night, 
also came bringing a mixture of myrrh and aloes 
weighing about one hundred pounds.
They took the body of Jesus 
and bound it with burial cloths along with the spices, 
according to the Jewish burial custom.
Now in the place where he had been crucified there was a garden, 
and in the garden a new tomb, in which no one had yet been buried.
So they laid Jesus there because of the Jewish preparation day; 
for the tomb was close by.

The Gospel of the Lord.

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Two years ago, we took a parish pilgrimage to the Holy Land. 

Together, we rode a boat across the Sea of Galilee – the same waters that Peter once fished from. We plunged our bodies into the Jordan River, the very place where Jesus was baptized by John.

We celebrated Mass at the site of the Annunciation, on the Mount of Beatitudes, and even at the empty tomb, where our Lord was raised from the dead!

These experiences change the way one reads scripture. It colors your faith, providing new insights into the life, death, and resurrection of our Lord.

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There was one moment, in particular, that twisted my heart with sorrow in one direction, and, in another direction, with profound admiration for Jesus.

We were standing at the Church of Saint Peter in Gallacantu, which is the site where Pontius Pilate’s courtyard once stood. It was here that Peter denied knowing Jesus three times while the Lord was being led off to be scourged, beaten, mocked, and crucified.

Stepping outside of the church, you begin to descend almost immediately into the Kidron Valley. On the other side of the valley is the hill that encompasses the Garden of Gethsemane.

This is where Jesus fell to his knees, sweat blood, and prayed that the “cup” of his suffering and death would pass from him.

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My entire perspective of today’s Gospel changed while standing there – outside the Church of Saint Peter. 

Our guide explained that, from the other side of the valley, Jesus would’ve seen the torches lit in Pilate’s court. 

He also would’ve seen tiny flames flickering in the night, creeping towards him as Pilate’s soldiers followed Judas’ lead.

Locals say it would’ve taken about forty-five minutes for those soldiers to reach Jesus. Meanwhile, our Lord could’ve disappeared over the hills in less than fifteen. 

Time was of the essence. His opportunity to run faded by the minute, like sand slipping through an hour glass.

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I stood there imaging how Jesus must’ve felt. 

It was pitch black. Judas had already betrayed him. His friends were fast asleep nearby. Was this all for nothing?

If Peter and the others couldn’t stay awake in the garden to pray with him for one hour, then how could they carry Jesus’ ministry forward? 

In his greatest hour of need, his friends reveal themselves to be tired. Imperfect. Weak.

In spite of what looks like an abysmal failure, Jesus kneels down and prays, “Father, not my will, but Thine be done.”

Although he could’ve left it all behind – he could’ve avoided unimaginable torture – Jesus didn’t budge an inch. “Not my will, but Thine be done.”

Suddenly, the darkness is broken by the soldiers’ torches, who awaken the disciples, arrest Jesus, and lead him off on a forty-five minute journey across the Kidron Valley, up to Pontius Pilate.

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I had never seen the Lord in that light before. I had never imagined the pressure, the temptation, and the opportunity he had to flee. 

Then the Lord spoke to me softly saying: sometimes we’re in need of one thing only – help from the Divine.

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While we aren’t standing in the Garden of Gethsemane physically, we all endure periods in life that test every fiber of our faith.

The doctor reads a malignant diagnosis. Our child struggles with mental illness or is bullied. A missile strikes. A gun is fired. Mother Nature wipes away our home.

We stand and weep, tasting the bitterness of Good Friday. 

In these moments, remember Jesus. Instead of giving up, or taking matters into his own hands, he knelt down and prayed, commending his life, his body, his Spirit into his Father’s hands. 

Three days later, his tomb was empty.

The same God who provided divine strength to his Son will sustain us in our “Gethsemane.” As the Psalmist says, “Trust in the Lord…that you may live secure. Commit your life to the Lord… and he will act” (Psalm 37: 3-5).

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Why does Jesus wash our feet?

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Gospel: John 13: 1-15

Before the feast of Passover, Jesus knew that his hour had come
to pass from this world to the Father.
He loved his own in the world and he loved them to the end.
The devil had already induced Judas, son of Simon the Iscariot, to hand him over.
So, during supper,
fully aware that the Father had put everything into his power
and that he had come from God and was returning to God,
he rose from supper and took off his outer garments.
He took a towel and tied it around his waist.
Then he poured water into a basin
and began to wash the disciples’ feet
and dry them with the towel around his waist.
He came to Simon Peter, who said to him,
“Master, are you going to wash my feet?”
Jesus answered and said to him,
“What I am doing, you do not understand now,
but you will understand later.”
Peter said to him, “You will never wash my feet.”
Jesus answered him,
“Unless I wash you, you will have no inheritance with me.”
Simon Peter said to him,
“Master, then not only my feet, but my hands and head as well.”
Jesus said to him,
“Whoever has bathed has no need except to have his feet washed,
            for he is clean all over;
so you are clean, but not all.”
For he knew who would betray him;
for this reason, he said, “Not all of you are clean.”

So when he had washed their feet
and put his garments back on and reclined at table again,
he said to them, “Do you realize what I have done for you?
You call me ‘teacher’ and ‘master,’  and rightly so, for indeed I am.
If I, therefore, the master and teacher, have washed your feet,
you ought to wash one another’s feet.
I have given you a model to follow,
so that as I have done for you, you should also do.”

The Gospel of the Lord.

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This was not the first time feet were washed in the Gospels.

Luke tells us that a “sinful woman” washed Jesus’ feet with her tears and dried them with her hair because he forgave her many sins. 

Later, while dining in Lazarus’ home just days before his death, Mary of Magdala pours costly perfume over the feet of Jesus to thank him for raising her brother from the dead.

Jesus wanted his disciples to experience that same type of love. So, he knelt down and washed their feet, giving all of us an example to follow.

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Feet are the movers of the body. They take us where we want to go – and prevent us from going where we don’t.

Tonight, I will wash the feet of several parishioners who, like the women in the Gospels, have been of loving service to the LORD and his Church.

They represent so many of us – those who work in our soup kitchen; those who deliver that food to the hungry in Newark.

Those who bring communion to the sick and the homebound; those who prepare and serve meals for our seniors in the narthex, or receptions after Mass.

Those whose feet will be washed represent all who stand in our choir, singing glory to God; our catechists who teach our young people our Catholic faith.

New and growing ministries like Welcome and Hospitality, ALPHA, SPX Playtime, as well as tried and true ministries like the Knights of Columbus.

They represent all of us who stand, sit, and kneel here week after week; and all who stand in solidarity with the poor, the hungry, the unwanted, and the oppressed.

They are us.

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As their feet are being washed, perhaps we should consider, what type of footprint have we left on others and on this parish?

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Think about the virtual print we leave through phone calls, text messages, prayers, and words of affirmation.

Or the many places our feet have taken us in person. 

Tonight, the LORD kneels down to wash them – to thank us for our service and to renew us in his love.

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There’s also a second, more spiritual dimension to the washing of feet.

On the surface, washing a guest’s feet was a practical thing to do. Their feet would naturally collect mud or dust while journeying from one home to another.

But, on a deeper level, it is also a sign of welcome into a person’s home – and by extension, into a person’s heart. 

By washing Peter’s feet, Jesus welcomes him into the Church, into the priesthood, and into the depths of his heart.

In baptism, we are all welcomed by the LORD into the Church. But Jesus washes our feet again this night to remind us that we are always welcome here in his home, the Church, and we are welcome, as ever, into his heart. 

How do I feel desired – or welcomed – by Jesus? And how do I give or receive his love in this parish?

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Feet are the movers of the body. They take us where we want to go, which is why we’re here this night.

As the LORD kneels down and washes our feet, may we all experience the love, the welcome, and the purity of heart that only Jesus can give.

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“One of you will betray me.” Warning signs from Jesus.

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Gospel: Matthew 26: 14-25

One of the Twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot,
went to the chief priests and said,
“What are you willing to give me
if I hand him over to you?”
They paid him thirty pieces of silver,
and from that time on he looked for an opportunity to hand him over.

On the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread,
the disciples approached Jesus and said,
“Where do you want us to prepare
for you to eat the Passover?”
He said,
“Go into the city to a certain man and tell him,
‘The teacher says, “My appointed time draws near;
in your house I shall celebrate the Passover with my disciples.””‘
The disciples then did as Jesus had ordered,
and prepared the Passover.

When it was evening,
he reclined at table with the Twelve.
And while they were eating, he said,
“Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.”
Deeply distressed at this,
they began to say to him one after another,
“Surely it is not I, Lord?”
He said in reply,
“He who has dipped his hand into the dish with me
is the one who will betray me.
The Son of Man indeed goes, as it is written of him,
but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed.
It would be better for that man if he had never been born.”
Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply,
“Surely it is not I, Rabbi?”
He answered, “You have said so.”

The Gospel of the Lord.

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I’m fascinated by Christ.

Though he knows all things – he knows that Judas wants to betray him – he doesn’t give up on him. Before Judas abandons the Lord, and the community that he’s been a part of for the last three years, Jesus sends him warning signs.

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The night begins with Jesus on his knees with a towel wrapped around his waist. He leans down and washes his disciples’ feet, bathing them in love, including Judas’ feet. 

Then Jesus subtly warns Judas against carrying out this horrible deed, saying things like, “Not all of you are clean.” And, “One of you will betray me,” as if the Lord is trying to prick his conscience without singling him out in front of the others.

Then he feeds Judas – a sign of hospitality – handing him a morsel of bread, which Catholics also believe was Jesus’ very own Body. 

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Jesus washes Judas’ feet; he warns him; and he feeds him with his very Self. He invites Judas to change his plans, but Jesus will not take away his freedom. 

I can only imagine the heartbreak our Good Shepherd felt as he watched Judas flee into the night.

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How often does the Lord try to lead us away from temptation and sin, into a life of trust, instead?

He pricks our conscience, gives us his Word, feeds us with his very own Body, places holy desires in our heart, and sends us friends along the way.

Do we always listen to his voice?

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“I am the Good Shepherd,” Jesus says. “I know my sheep and they know me. They listen to my voice and follow me.”

What might that look like for us today?

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