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Gospel: Matthew 26: 14-25
One of the Twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot,
went to the chief priests and said,
“What are you willing to give me
if I hand him over to you?”
They paid him thirty pieces of silver,
and from that time on he looked for an opportunity to hand him over.
On the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread,
the disciples approached Jesus and said,
“Where do you want us to prepare
for you to eat the Passover?”
He said,
“Go into the city to a certain man and tell him,
‘The teacher says, “My appointed time draws near;
in your house I shall celebrate the Passover with my disciples.””‘
The disciples then did as Jesus had ordered,
and prepared the Passover.
When it was evening,
he reclined at table with the Twelve.
And while they were eating, he said,
“Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.”
Deeply distressed at this,
they began to say to him one after another,
“Surely it is not I, Lord?”
He said in reply,
“He who has dipped his hand into the dish with me
is the one who will betray me.
The Son of Man indeed goes, as it is written of him,
but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed.
It would be better for that man if he had never been born.”
Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply,
“Surely it is not I, Rabbi?”
He answered, “You have said so.”
The Gospel of the Lord.
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“Surely, it is not I, Lord?”
It’s easy for us to villainize Judas Iscariot over that one wretched decision he made.
But, at the same time, we might wonder, “Was Judas a true villain or just a divine pawn?” If scripture was to be fulfilled, then someone had to betray Jesus.
Perhaps Judas just filled the spot. Unlike Mary, he was not filled with divine grace; rather, he was the one elected to draw the short, sinful straw.
As the Lord says to him, “Judas, go quickly and do what you have to do.” That sounds more like a command than a choice.
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Consider why Judas did what he did. Some speculate it was out of greed. But thirty lousy pieces of silver seems a bit insignificant to me. A more likely reason was that Judas felt betrayed first; Christ did not pan out to be the person Judas thought he’d be.
Earlier in the Gospels, we hear about all of the disciples arguing over seats of honor and titles in Christ’s kingdom. They all hoped Jesus would be an earthly king, and they his glorious advisors.
Even after his resurrection, Jesus appears to two of his disciples who are leaving Jerusalem, who unknowingly share their grief with him, saying disappointingly, “We thought he would be the one to redeem Israel.”
There was a dark mark of disappointment in the hearts of them all, not just Judas.
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This begs the question: was Judas beyond divine forgiveness?
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Just before he dies, the Lord washes Judas’ feet and feeds him with his very Self. Then Jesus gives them all this command: “Love one another as I have loved you.”
It’s in the very nature of love to forgive. Thus, Christ must have been thinking about Judas, as well, when he cried out, exhausted and bloodied, “Father, forgive them! They know not what they do!”
Forgive him. Forgive them. Forgive us all.
For every time we, too, have turned away from the Lord, each in our own way, “Father, forgive us. We know not what we do.”
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Image credits: (1) Physician Burnout (2) Judas’ Remorse, Almeida Júnior (3) Family Foundations Institute