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Gospel: John 13: 21-33, 36-38
Reclining at table with his disciples, Jesus was deeply troubled and testified,
“Amen, amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.”
The disciples looked at one another, at a loss as to whom he meant.
One of his disciples, the one whom Jesus loved,
was reclining at Jesus’ side.
So Simon Peter nodded to him to find out whom he meant.
He leaned back against Jesus’ chest and said to him,
“Master, who is it?”
Jesus answered,
“It is the one to whom I hand the morsel after I have dipped it.”
So he dipped the morsel and took it and handed it to Judas,
son of Simon the Iscariot.
After Judas took the morsel, Satan entered him.
So Jesus said to him, “What you are going to do, do quickly.”
Now none of those reclining at table realized why he said this to him.
Some thought that since Judas kept the money bag, Jesus had told him,
“Buy what we need for the feast,”
or to give something to the poor.
So Judas took the morsel and left at once. And it was night.
When he had left, Jesus said,
“Now is the Son of Man glorified, and God is glorified in him.
If God is glorified in him, God will also glorify him in himself,
and he will glorify him at once.
My children, I will be with you only a little while longer.
You will look for me, and as I told the Jews,
‘Where I go you cannot come,’ so now I say it to you.”
Simon Peter said to him, “Master, where are you going?”
Jesus answered him,
“Where I am going, you cannot follow me now,
though you will follow later.”
Peter said to him,
“Master, why can I not follow you now?
I will lay down my life for you.”
Jesus answered, “Will you lay down your life for me?
Amen, amen, I say to you, the cock will not crow
before you deny me three times.”
The Gospel of the Lord.
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In days gone by, nations would erect large stone walls around the border of their city in order to protect their citizens from foreign armies who might attack them. Anyone who lived within the city walls was considered safe, a trusted member of society.
Thus, the greatest dread would be an enemy who attacked his own people from within. Against such a threat, there was no immediate protection.
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We all know how the story of Christ’s life ends, and because of that, we tend to imagine Judas Iscariot being the suspicious one, the renegade, the one on the fringe of this intimate circle of trust.
But that’s not the case. Judas was one of them.
If the disciples had any inkling of his sinister plans, then they would’ve never allowed him to hold the communal purse. They would’ve intuited right away whom Jesus was talking about when he said, “One of you will betray me.”
But their ignorance reveals that Judas was the enemy inside the walls.
Tragically, his decision will pull down the curtains, revealing the hearts of all. Within a matter of hours, nearly everyone Jesus loves will abandon him.
Peter will deny knowing Jesus while cowering in fear, warming his hands by a fire. The other disciples will run off into the night, scared for their lives. The crowds, many of whom witnessed or heard of Christ’s miraculous power, will chose Barabbas, a murderer, over him.
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The terrible and sensitive wisdom written into the final hours of Christ’s life is the truth that, under the right conditions, perhaps anyone is capable of becoming the “traitor inside the walls,” turning on those we love the most – friends, family, even God.
Suddenly, you might discover a long-time business partner has been stealing company funds. A civil servant turns rotten. A spouse’s well-kept secret is exposed. An adult child suddenly splits from the family circle. Such examples of betrayal leave us stunned.
But the Lord carried his cross to Calvary for that very reason – not only to die in our place, absolving our offenses, but also to offer us new beginning after new beginning.
Christ Crucified, have mercy on us.
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Image credits: (1) Judas’ Remorse, Almeida Júnior, 1880 (2) loveEXPLORING (3) Christ Carrying the Cross, El Greco, The Metropolitan Museum of Art





